I touched

my hand to my face.. my fingers sliding upward toward my eyes. I pulled back.

The tears glittered in the flickering light from my Christmas tree. The cool drops had spilled forth unexpectedly. Sweeping down my face and splashing onto my collar bone.

Had I really not noticed? This pain? Had I really not felt the tears coming again?

A chill climbed my spine and I wrapped my arms around my legs. The loss enveloping me into a bittersweet hug.

I have loved many times. Over and over I send my outstretched hand into the darkness, grasping for light.

It’s alright, I’m alright. Just thinking of you in the dim light tonight.